Loving you just gave me pain.

I remember the day I met you and the times we spent together.. I remember the times you were holding me and when you told me, everything would be okey..

I was so in love with you. I felt so loved, I thought for once that some one actually cared about me. I thought about you every minute of everyday. I thought we would last forever. I thought you were the one for me. You were like my drug. I couldn't live without you.  

When I was around you, I forgot about everything else around me. You made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. 
You would be driving the car, and i would just look at you, and you would notice. You would give me that cute smile and grab my hand and say "I love you".

Sometimes I felt like everything was just a dream. How did I find a guy like him.  You used to sing to me all the amazing love songs that would make me melt in your hands. You called and send me text messages everyday. I trusted you. I loved you. I couldn't live without you.

You promised you would never hurt me, you promised you would never leave me. "I will be with you forever".


Few Months Later...



I couldn't sleep, my eyes were red and swollen cause of all the crying.
He left me, he really did leave me.. Why did this happen to me?
All along he had been cheating and lying.
Love made me so blind. I had travelled for a month, and in the mean while.. He had been with several different girls.

I got depressed. No one had ever hurt me like this. I cant describe the pain I had.. I thought nothing mattered anymore, I wanted to die.. I thought my life was over..


Now its been about a year and four months since this happened.. Until now I didn't date anyone. I don't want to take the risk of getting hurt again. I dont want to feel the pain all over again.
He ruined my life. I'm scared of getting hurt. I don't trust anyone anymore.

The good thing is now I've learned.. Not to trust ANYONE 100%.
All of this has made me such a strong person. Now I just look back and think 'What an asshole he is' . I never thought I would get over him, but I did. It just needs alot of time.

<3

Hopefully, someday, I will learn how to love again.

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!