2012

A New Year, a New Start.

Its amazing how people change.. Some for better, some for worse.
People you once cared about are now your enemy.. People you used to hate are now your close friend.

Changing your attitude towards life, can make earth a much better place.
How you react to things that happen, is up to you. You can either ignore it, or be all upset about it.

People should be grateful for what they have and not be thinking about what they could have.

Day 03 - Your Parents

I love my parents..
We do have our bad times tho. Well everyone does.

My mum is the best and i love her so much. She is such an amazing person.
My dad is really funny and dumb. :)

Sometimes I feel bad, I wanna be a better daughter for them. My mum carried me 9 months in her stomach and went thru all that pain.

I can never pay it back to her. She is the best. <3

Dad <3



Mum <3

 We have a good time together, we goof around, we make fun of each other. <3

Day 2 - First Love

Hmm.. my first love?
I think im to young to know what love is and i dont think i experienced real love yet.
I did "love" my ex boyfriend veryvery muchh. I thought he was my everything and i thought he would be the guy for me..

But yah.. What can i do? Shit happens.
I hope someday i will meet a guy who will not hurt me and will love me for who i am.
I want a man i cant live without, not a guy i can live with.

<3 ..
I was thinking about her
Thinking about me,
Thinking 'bout us what we gonna be...

Open my eyes, it was only just a  dream </3

Day 1 - Introduce yourself

I was born May 16th,1994 in Tampere, Finland.
I have a younger and a older brother, Zakaria is 14 years old and Karim is 24 years old.
I lived in Finland my whole life until I moved to Qatar in August 2008.
My dad is Algerian and my mum is Finnish.
I love sports and animals. I love to play football and basketball.
Im a horse-rider and ive been riding for 5 years now. I love it and its something that im going to be doing my whole life.
I have 2 cats called Tikru and Felix. My big brother is taking care of them in Finland, he is in college so he doesent live with us in Qatar.
My dad is a football coach, and thats why we live here.. Cuz of his job..

I love my friends. Im really outgoing and im talkative. I got friends from many different nationalities which is really great.

I hate people who lie and people who talk shit behind my back. I hate people who are fake and who think they own the world.

Time flies.. Dont waste your time

Wow.. 2010 is already over. Just a while ago it was summer, the weather was frikkin hot, people would be turning on their air conditioners and spending time by the pool. Time is going really fast. 
Years are flying by, we are getting older and older.

We are meeting new people and discovering new things. We are learning about life day by day.
We hurt people, we do mistakes. People we love hurt us, the people we care about make mistakes. Nobody is perfect, that is just a fact that everyone has to understand. But people also have to admit their own mistakes. 

You have to enjoy your life. Live everyday as if they were the last day of your life. Dont waste your time on nothing that is not important. Tell your friends and family you love them, life is a mystery. Anything can happen. 


Learn to forgive, try to forget. Every year is like a new empty book, you will write the stories in it. You can make a change in your life. Change your attitude towards life.. Smile more, Love life. You can change peoples lives.

Learn to love your life the way it is. Dont always look at the rich kids who get whatever they want. In the world there are so many people who would kill to be you.

Moving on..

After my break-up.. I havent been capable of dating anyone.
I know its been over a year already, but.. I dont think im ready yet.

I dont want to take the risk of getting hurt again. I went thru so much pain. It took months to get over what he did.

I really miss being loved.. I want to feel it again.
I want someone I can love and trust.. Someone who will take care of me.

Will I ever find my soulmate?
Is there a soulmate for everyone?
Only God knows.

Love can make you so blind.
Love can make you do incredible things. It can make you do stupid things.
When you love somebody, you will do anything for the person you love.



Breaking up is always so hard. In the beginning it hurts, ALOT. Just give yourself time and you will forget.

Loving you just gave me pain.

I remember the day I met you and the times we spent together.. I remember the times you were holding me and when you told me, everything would be okey..

I was so in love with you. I felt so loved, I thought for once that some one actually cared about me. I thought about you every minute of everyday. I thought we would last forever. I thought you were the one for me. You were like my drug. I couldn't live without you.  

When I was around you, I forgot about everything else around me. You made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. 
You would be driving the car, and i would just look at you, and you would notice. You would give me that cute smile and grab my hand and say "I love you".

Sometimes I felt like everything was just a dream. How did I find a guy like him.  You used to sing to me all the amazing love songs that would make me melt in your hands. You called and send me text messages everyday. I trusted you. I loved you. I couldn't live without you.

You promised you would never hurt me, you promised you would never leave me. "I will be with you forever".


Few Months Later...



I couldn't sleep, my eyes were red and swollen cause of all the crying.
He left me, he really did leave me.. Why did this happen to me?
All along he had been cheating and lying.
Love made me so blind. I had travelled for a month, and in the mean while.. He had been with several different girls.

I got depressed. No one had ever hurt me like this. I cant describe the pain I had.. I thought nothing mattered anymore, I wanted to die.. I thought my life was over..


Now its been about a year and four months since this happened.. Until now I didn't date anyone. I don't want to take the risk of getting hurt again. I dont want to feel the pain all over again.
He ruined my life. I'm scared of getting hurt. I don't trust anyone anymore.

The good thing is now I've learned.. Not to trust ANYONE 100%.
All of this has made me such a strong person. Now I just look back and think 'What an asshole he is' . I never thought I would get over him, but I did. It just needs alot of time.

<3

Hopefully, someday, I will learn how to love again.

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!